Realising that you cant stop time

Have you ever left a person and wanted to tell them every word that you have for them.... I have... As much as I have the thoughts in my mind, I cannot speak them. The words I have cannot be spoken because of teh fear of making things worse.... the fear of ruining what I think we have... I mean in my mind... I have fallin in love all over again. Thats awesome eh? Not when the fear takes over your heart. Fear of ruining the time I am having with him. I havent laughed or smiled like this in a very long time.... of course a lot has happened this year... but I havent felt this love in years... and I wish... i wish to the brightest star... to the tallest mountain that this love will last.... Im giving my heart one last chance.....

If it gives up... Im done... Its all done... cuz I cant go through anymore hurt in my life...

Im hoping that life throws me ... happiness