DO you ever feel like asking of everything

Although our friends part from us throughout the years, we must never feel as though they are not present. You, have been a big part of my life, whether it shows or not. I hope that whatever happens in our lives that you never forget the times we used to have. I think about you... about how much I miss teh smiles... teh high school smiles... oh God do I ever miss how things were. I miss teh innocence of everyday... I miss the depth within our eyes... I miss the everyday hugs and the every hour laughs. I miss the every minute crazyness... I miss every second of a life we all used to have as friends... and yet no matter how many nights I go out in London.... no matter how many friends I have here.... no matter how many bonds I make here... I find myself looking back at the bonds that are breaking... and how I do nothing to change them....


Do you ever sit and want to ask everyone of everything? kind of like you are sitting here.. a selfish person? Do you ever want to take your world back and and return it for the one you originally had? I do... Sometimes its not a question of life and death its about wanting more in life...... its about if a person is selfish enough to want ... to want to grab life soo bad..... about trying to grasp the wind that blows everything every which way.... it about WANTING a life.... its not as easy as it sounds.... trying to stop something that isnt there... pr even trying to make something happen of something that you think there but isnt.... it will be ok.. I am sure of it.... it will be ok for everyone soon..... we will all be happy.. in a happy world... looking back on our tears and laughing.... looking beyond teh sunset and knowing life will someday make sense for someone..... maybe not me.... but one of these days I will be at peace... It will be ok.... I have full faith in this.... because I knwo I can make it better....