Well, life sucks

life sucks and we all know it.... I am drinking right now... so bare with my language skills...

I am beyond overwhelmd right now... ups and downs... ups and downs.... major ups and majr downs.... being pushed, pulled and broken down.... not sure what I am doing or if I am doing it right....

But myself in places that no one wants to be.... being MY fault and only MY fault.... I dont put any blame on anyone...
Decisions kill me... trying to figure out sooo much this year... one being if I am good enough... I try soo hard to make ppl happy...and I truely finding it soo hard

Life really really sucks rightnow..... soo much shit is going on.. I dont even have teh energy to write about it anymore

Krysta