as a friend

You can't change the things that have happened in your life. You cant go back and tell everyone you wish you did things different... you cant change the hurt or change that hurt you have endured in your life.. it is impossible..... what is also JUST as impossible is forgetting your life and the bad, impossible things that have happened in your life. If you have hate... if you cry... if you can't do anything but think about the messed up things in your life... then taht is how it is.... that is how things happen... that is reality... You cant change what is going to happen in your life.. if you die... well then you die.... take it as it is.. accept it and hope that someone elses life turns out better.

For someone to tell me to lighten up.... well that shows me that the day this or that person endures what I have.... I will be there for them and I hope they remember the things they have said to me...

All I ask as a friend... is be there when I NEED you.. and I will do the same either way... as much as you put my life and my habits down... i will be there and I will be the friend... the person I have always been. I am a person.... who has endured much... who is going through a lot... who is trying to figure out what to do with her life.... trying to figure out her place .. if anything is her place... and all I want is support from my friends...my family.... I want a hug when I am sad... without questions or a big conversation.... when I am confused... when I am unsure about my life... let me talk.. for I let you give all your words and thoughts before I invade your life... with my opinions... if I ask .. as a friend .. for your opinion.... that is when i truly need and want it.... when i tell you I dont want to here it... I DONT... I dont want to here hurtful things that effect my day to day living......

Be a friend..... that is all taht I ask..... it may be hard sometimes... to look into my eyes.. and see hurt... and may be hard to look at me and want to leave it all behind..... but please be there....as a friend by my side... for i will do the same thing through all that you endure, as my friend.