i miss you

Quite Nights,
Lonely Mornings.
Wishing things worked out better between you and I.
I know you didn't mean to hurt me.
I know you care about me.
I care about you too.. very much.
What hurts most is letting go of a time where we were happy.
A time where I looked in teh mirror in the morning and felt something good.
I guess this is when I say..... I feel like crying for days.... and to be honest I do.... I want you to know that you arent the reason I turned out the way I did. It just happened. Dont blame yourself.
Us NOT being friends... is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. You know my history .. I know yours... no one knows my history like you. you know my laughs... you know when something serious is up.. just by looking into my eyes... you are my best friend.... and I miss you. More then anything on this earth...... that is all I want is to hug my best friend and tell him that I am not ok. I need you..... I need your support... and yet you will never read this...... you will never know how much i need you right now... how I want to go and walk to your house and tell you that I dont care what you have done... I DONT CARE.... and more then anything I just want a hug,,from you.... being so confused.... so tired.... so just sick of this feeling..... today is the third night without sleep..... Im stressed out and I need you...

You are wrong... you are sooo wrong... I know you cant bare to hurt me anymore...... but you are wrong... i AM not BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU.... im soo lost..... and no one is here to help...... Oh GOD I miss you..... you are worth more then life. I SWEAR