cold and crappy day

Do you think he woke up that cold and crappy day and knew it was his day? Do you think he took one last look at the world and knew that many people loved him? Did he think of his children... Did he wonder what he was meant for. was he scared. did he know that his wife loved him... did they know he loved them. I dont understand deatha nd i always say Im not scared of death... Im not... not for myself... but for others.... for their families.... I cant believe I feel this for a person I have met twice..... and I wish I could help his family,... give them hugs and tell them that it will be ok... but I know it wont be ok.... I know that his daughters are crying right now... that they are wondering why this had to happen to them,... and his friends are grieving.... they are wondering why their friend is gone and why this world has to be soo unfare.... they want him back... they want to hug him and tell him that is will be fine..... they want to sit at the dinner table and laugh one more time... they want to see his smile in life form... and they want to remember every good thing he did... but they cant they are grieving... they are hating everyone.l.. they are hating life and mostly they hate him... they hate that they didnt get that last kiss... that last hug.... that last good bye... they hate him.... I HATE THIS WORLD... I hate that bad things happen to goo people and I want to change it..... but i am a pebble and I cant help this world pain.